SUDDENLY
And suddenly I'm sick. Blame it to the weather.

And to our car's busted air-conditioning system.

Gotta go.

Peace out!

NOTHING REALLY BLOGWORTHY TODAY
Nothing is really blogworthy today. I swear.

- I was to go to school to meet with my CWTS classmates. I ended up meeting S15.

- I did nothing all day but play PC network games.

- I hung out w/ friends at The Venue.

- I ate at Kaibigan.

- And oh yes, my phone fell from the palm of my hands.

- In the rain.

- Another thing, Battlefield: Vietnam would've been nicer if the player limit is not 35.

Anyway, these are the things I need to accomplish for this week:
1.) MACCOMS homework and reading assignment

2.) RELSTWO church service which, I haven't even started

3.) My donation for our CWTS project

And for those people who have read my last entry, I just want to make it clear that I haven't closed my doors on her. It's just that, basta, tangina nya talaga.

Gotta go.

My right leg is bleeding.

Peace out!

MANILA DAY
Happy manila day to all manileños out there. I'm not.ü

Anyway, we have no classes today. That alone makes me lonely. My brother's wedding is about 2 weeks away. I don't know if I'm excited or nervous for him. I hope he'll really be happy.

Yesterday was our "first" day of manacon class. Well at least with another section. It's not as boring as our "own" class, but what the hell. Sipin is the teacher. So what?

Played basketball almost the whole u-break. Damn did I miss it.

Met up with frytz, kimber & kes at the 2nd floor photocopier. Kimber was studying for the COMPASM (man I love that word)dep test. After that, we saw arun & renz. We went to jolibee where arun saw a tarush human being. After that we went to the ampi.

A string-depleted guitar didn't sound that bad. Or at least the songs they played didn't need another string.

So the 5 of us separated ways, with me & frytz going to gox direction. Before we went home, frytz asked if we can drink some beers.

He didn't know miller tasted better than strong ice. I love miller beers.

There he asked me the whole story about what happened between her & me. I told him the story & kept on repeating like a broken record that: "The only reason why someone will hate another person is because he wants to be that person."

Whatever.

And if ever she approaches me & says sorry, or if ever that happens, I won't give a shit. I will let her anguish in her own conscience.

To tell you that I've been saying sorry for a year now with nothing really happening is really frustrating. I'm tired of this. I'm tired of her saying "nakakainis siya!" or "siya na ang pinakanakakairitang taong nakilala ko!" and "wala siyang kwentang kaibigan!" Imagine those words being said to you. Basta ako, pagod na, bahala na siya sa buhay niya. Kahit mag-sorry siya, pahahalikin ko siya sa lupa. Ibang vince ang makikita niya kung sakaling mangyari yun. Taas ng pride niya ha. Tingnan ko lang kung hanggang saan tibay niya.

Try & stop me.

You won't.

I promise you that.

If ever you can read this, I have this one simple message: "Tangina ka."

Anyway, I'm going to church today for that relstwo thing.

I need Divine Intervention.

Gotta go.

Peace out!

P.S.: Disclaimer: The author's words are strictly opinions. The author tried to limit his lashing words, but he can't control himself. Lastly, no apologies will be issued to the person the author wrote about. No apologies anymore. Thank you.

TRAGEDY
My friend's father was killed. He was shot 5 times.

And the thing was, he was killed on the eve of father's day.

My sincere condolences.

She told me she's leaving la salle for good to go back to cebu and stay with her family. I just hope that everything will be fine someday. I'm praying that your family will get through this grave moment in your lives. If ever you can read this, I'm here by your side to support you always.

Peace out!

WHAT THE HELL
Can someone please explain to me what the hell is happening right now? As you can see, observe arun & frytz's entries. Check it out.

Dep test last wednesday. Its not that hard, but I think some carelessness will do me in. To sum it all up it was pretty easy. My stupid mouth. Everytime I say a test is easy, I fail, its like a jinx or something. Please help me pray that I'll pass the damn test.

And oh yes. The Pistons are the new NBA Champs. Another thing, Jackson, Shaq & Kobe are on their way out. So is Malone, Payton, & Fisher. Hell Yeah. I will not give credit to the Lakers because they deserved to lose the series.

By the way, I'm doing a little bit ok now. Thanks to those who "sympathized", if there are anyones who did.

My head hurts like hell.

Gotta go.

Peace out!

A BAD DAY AND A DISTRESS CALL
Today was another day. Another normal day. And I'm getting sick of it.

First, relstwo class was boring. This was after I ran from the LRT station to gokongwei with my shoe laces untied. Compro1 was not that boring. They discussed our dep test from last year. yeah. Talk about bringing back heartbreakers. Then it was maccoms, the homework that I didn't even know was assigned until I got back to the classroom after I went to the wash room. I ended the school day by consulting Mr. Raffy about some of the questions involving his subject matter. Then ate at mcdo-hp. Then rode the bus home. Which, sadly, had to go to lawton before going back. All because they didn't want to pay those corrupt MMDA's no more. Damn it.

You know, I'm starting to wonder if I can still take everything that's coming. First, my brother's getting married in the least possible time. For me, to be honest, its not because he's getting because he wanted to. Then, my studies. Then... I mean come on. I can only take so much. I just can't describe how disappointed I am with everything around me. I mean some of them at home. I think I need a break. This is all too much. I'm telling this so that you'll not be surprised if one day I would just break down. I have to admit I'm approaching limit break. I'm telling you. I don't look too good when I'm in a world of my own.

It's like everyone around me are moving like little kids. They are so damn immature. I'm not washing my dirty laundry in public. I'm just unleashing my fury. And I think I'm on a roll. I love it. This is MY web journal anyway. So who cares?

Everything is just too much. I can't take it anymore. Or at least its nearing that level.

They are telling me to study harder. Come on. Do you think I can concentrate? I don't know if people here are just insensitive, numb, or just plain immature.

I need help. I need psychological counselling. I have many thoughts in my head. I really need one. I'm so... I can just take too much you know.

I just want to shout. I wish that one day, everything will be good again. eberything will be fine, as if nothing happened. But that's justwishful thinking. So now, I have heavier problems than my problem with kath. She's the icing on the cake to all my problems. That alone makes me feel crappy. You see kath is not my only problem. As you can see I have scrambled thoughts. There are clouds & clouds of thoughts in my head. I just want to get it out of my head. Please. Help me.

That's why sometimes, some people catch me looking at nothing, speaking of nonsense, writing about trash, etc.

Just like what I'm doing now.

Peace.

P.S.: Pray for me and my family. For guidance. I need them real bad. Please. Thanks.

IT'S BEEN AWHILE
Yeah I know, its been such a long time since I last updated. Many things are happening around. Here are some:

I. Arun's Birthday
- Happy birthday Roshan! I hope for all the best for you. God bless in everything. I'm just around watching your back. Animo.ü

II. Compro1 dep test this wednesday
- I hope I'll finally pass those damn departmentals. I need to pass the subject this term. I'm delayed for almost a year now. Wish me God's blessings.

III. It's been a year
- Yeah you know what I'm talking about. And I'm burying it down my unconscious mind. She is one insensitive bi-atch.

IV. Laye's debut
- I know Renz will be surprised as to why now. I've been somewhat busy. Anyway, Laye's debut was a blast. Many friends came. Renz looked like Triple H with his hair down. With the matching suit & tie. By the way, it was a formal event. The food was good too.

V. Evanescence
- I finally got a copy of Evanescence's Fallen. It's a good album. It's your money's worth.

VI. Linkin Park tomorrow
- Tomorrow is going to be a big day. Linkin Park's concert here in Manila. And I don't give a damn if they are the ones who'll give me passes to the said event. I'm not watching. I'm damn sure the jolog community will be there. So never mind.

I just realized that N.E.R.D.'s meaning was Nobody Else Really Dies while M.Y.M.P.'s was Make Your Mama Proud.
I don't know about T.A.T.U.'s.
And I don't give a s**t.

See you all soon.

God bless you all.

Peace out!

RECAP
Sorry for not updating too much recently. Some turn of events happened. Anyway, I'll just sum up some of the things that happened this week.

I. Compro1
- I have gotten the results of the special class in Compro1. I was relegated in s16, catch 2t8. My teacher is Mr. Raffy Cabredo. Sad because I'm with the freshmen. But its ok.

II. Subic
- It was'nt as big a blast as before. In fact we found the trip this year boring. Except for the go kart ride.

III. Pedicabs
- There was this pedicab driver in Vito Cruz whom I called out because it was drizzling and I couldn't walk my way to Harrison Plaza. He even ran over my right foot. So he was running his mouth about "dapat may dala kang jacket" or "ang traffic naman dito". So when we arrived at Harrison Plaza, I was expecting a P20 payment. Instead, he told me "Bossing, kulang to, P30 na, malapit na to sa manila zoo". What a loser. I told him manila zoo was on the other street before reaching adriatico. But he won't oblidge, so I gave him a P10 bill. Geez.

IV. KFC waiter
- This happened while bj & freddie (note: maki) were calling out some names to the service crew of the said fastfood chain. Suddenly, this dude hurried his way out of the vicinity of the trash can. He almost slipped, together with the things he was holding on a tray. You should've seen it. What a pity.

V. Encomp2
- The subject's teacher is the most boring teacher I've ever encountered in my whole life. Need I say more?

And for the things to look forward to.

- Its laye's debut party tomorrow at Intramuros. I sure hope it doesn't rain tomorrow.

I hate this weather. I got the colds and a bad throat. If only the weather doesn't change in a day.

Gotta go.

Peace out!

SOMETHING SOMETHING
You might want to read this. Well at least if you're in love...

"When you are together with that special
someone, you pretend to ignore
that person. But when that special someone is
not
around, you might look around to find them. At that moment, you are
in
love.

Although there is someone else who always makes
you laugh, your eyes and attention might go only to that
special someone.
Then, you are in love.

Although that special someone was supposed to
have called you long back,
to let you know of their safe arrival, your
phone is quiet.
You are desperately waiting for the call!
At that moment, you are in love.

If you are much more excited for one short e-
mail from that special someone than other many long e-
mails, you are in love.

When you find yourself as one who cannot erase
all the messages in your answering machine because of
one message from that special someone, you are in love.

When you get a couple of free movie tickets, you
would not hesitate to think of that special someone.
Then, you are in love.

You keep telling yourself, "that special someone
is just a friend", but you realize that you can not avoid that
person's special attraction. At that moment, you are in love.

While you are reading this page, if someone
appears in your mind,
then u are in love with that person."

Really? Can someone please show me how to love again? I think I've lost that feeling already.

Peace out!