Masks
The past few days, I have noticed myself to be very tight, stressed out, always on the edge and very, very grumpy. So it got me thinking. Maybe this is the time to finally learn how to wear a mask.
You see, we wear masks for different occasions and for the different types of people that we are with. We wear a type of mask if we are at work. A type of mask if we are with friends. A type of mask if we are with our family and friends. A type for our special someone.
If we can wear masks for different types of people, why can't we wear a type of mask to hide away our emotions? That would be very convenient. Nobody would really know who you are and what you really feel.
But you see, that's the thing. Am I desperately trying real hard to find a mask that will fit my personality? Or is it because I'm just trying to hide away the truest, sincerest and most beautiful set of emotions that I've felt for someone in a long while? That maybe, just maybe, I'm subconsciously trying to push that person away when I can easily draw that person closer? That maybe, I desperately want to be a part of that person's life, regardless if that person is seeing someone or not, and regardless if that person has baggage or not? That maybe, I want to get to know that person better, that person's past, that person's present, that person's dreams and become that person's future?
If that is the case, I am the worst liar in the history of this planet. And no mask can ever fit me, no matter how desperate I become, because this is who I'll always be. A man who doesn't hide his emotions under his sleeves.
You see, we wear masks for different occasions and for the different types of people that we are with. We wear a type of mask if we are at work. A type of mask if we are with friends. A type of mask if we are with our family and friends. A type for our special someone.
If we can wear masks for different types of people, why can't we wear a type of mask to hide away our emotions? That would be very convenient. Nobody would really know who you are and what you really feel.
But you see, that's the thing. Am I desperately trying real hard to find a mask that will fit my personality? Or is it because I'm just trying to hide away the truest, sincerest and most beautiful set of emotions that I've felt for someone in a long while? That maybe, just maybe, I'm subconsciously trying to push that person away when I can easily draw that person closer? That maybe, I desperately want to be a part of that person's life, regardless if that person is seeing someone or not, and regardless if that person has baggage or not? That maybe, I want to get to know that person better, that person's past, that person's present, that person's dreams and become that person's future?
If that is the case, I am the worst liar in the history of this planet. And no mask can ever fit me, no matter how desperate I become, because this is who I'll always be. A man who doesn't hide his emotions under his sleeves.
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