A BAD DAY AND A DISTRESS CALL
Today was another day. Another normal day. And I'm getting sick of it.
First, relstwo class was boring. This was after I ran from the LRT station to gokongwei with my shoe laces untied. Compro1 was not that boring. They discussed our dep test from last year. yeah. Talk about bringing back heartbreakers. Then it was maccoms, the homework that I didn't even know was assigned until I got back to the classroom after I went to the wash room. I ended the school day by consulting Mr. Raffy about some of the questions involving his subject matter. Then ate at mcdo-hp. Then rode the bus home. Which, sadly, had to go to lawton before going back. All because they didn't want to pay those corrupt MMDA's no more. Damn it.
You know, I'm starting to wonder if I can still take everything that's coming. First, my brother's getting married in the least possible time. For me, to be honest, its not because he's getting because he wanted to. Then, my studies. Then... I mean come on. I can only take so much. I just can't describe how disappointed I am with everything around me. I mean some of them at home. I think I need a break. This is all too much. I'm telling this so that you'll not be surprised if one day I would just break down. I have to admit I'm approaching limit break. I'm telling you. I don't look too good when I'm in a world of my own.
It's like everyone around me are moving like little kids. They are so damn immature. I'm not washing my dirty laundry in public. I'm just unleashing my fury. And I think I'm on a roll. I love it. This is MY web journal anyway. So who cares?
Everything is just too much. I can't take it anymore. Or at least its nearing that level.
They are telling me to study harder. Come on. Do you think I can concentrate? I don't know if people here are just insensitive, numb, or just plain immature.
I need help. I need psychological counselling. I have many thoughts in my head. I really need one. I'm so... I can just take too much you know.
I just want to shout. I wish that one day, everything will be good again. eberything will be fine, as if nothing happened. But that's justwishful thinking. So now, I have heavier problems than my problem with kath. She's the icing on the cake to all my problems. That alone makes me feel crappy. You see kath is not my only problem. As you can see I have scrambled thoughts. There are clouds & clouds of thoughts in my head. I just want to get it out of my head. Please. Help me.
That's why sometimes, some people catch me looking at nothing, speaking of nonsense, writing about trash, etc.
Just like what I'm doing now.
Peace.
P.S.: Pray for me and my family. For guidance. I need them real bad. Please. Thanks.
Today was another day. Another normal day. And I'm getting sick of it.
First, relstwo class was boring. This was after I ran from the LRT station to gokongwei with my shoe laces untied. Compro1 was not that boring. They discussed our dep test from last year. yeah. Talk about bringing back heartbreakers. Then it was maccoms, the homework that I didn't even know was assigned until I got back to the classroom after I went to the wash room. I ended the school day by consulting Mr. Raffy about some of the questions involving his subject matter. Then ate at mcdo-hp. Then rode the bus home. Which, sadly, had to go to lawton before going back. All because they didn't want to pay those corrupt MMDA's no more. Damn it.
You know, I'm starting to wonder if I can still take everything that's coming. First, my brother's getting married in the least possible time. For me, to be honest, its not because he's getting because he wanted to. Then, my studies. Then... I mean come on. I can only take so much. I just can't describe how disappointed I am with everything around me. I mean some of them at home. I think I need a break. This is all too much. I'm telling this so that you'll not be surprised if one day I would just break down. I have to admit I'm approaching limit break. I'm telling you. I don't look too good when I'm in a world of my own.
It's like everyone around me are moving like little kids. They are so damn immature. I'm not washing my dirty laundry in public. I'm just unleashing my fury. And I think I'm on a roll. I love it. This is MY web journal anyway. So who cares?
Everything is just too much. I can't take it anymore. Or at least its nearing that level.
They are telling me to study harder. Come on. Do you think I can concentrate? I don't know if people here are just insensitive, numb, or just plain immature.
I need help. I need psychological counselling. I have many thoughts in my head. I really need one. I'm so... I can just take too much you know.
I just want to shout. I wish that one day, everything will be good again. eberything will be fine, as if nothing happened. But that's justwishful thinking. So now, I have heavier problems than my problem with kath. She's the icing on the cake to all my problems. That alone makes me feel crappy. You see kath is not my only problem. As you can see I have scrambled thoughts. There are clouds & clouds of thoughts in my head. I just want to get it out of my head. Please. Help me.
That's why sometimes, some people catch me looking at nothing, speaking of nonsense, writing about trash, etc.
Just like what I'm doing now.
Peace.
P.S.: Pray for me and my family. For guidance. I need them real bad. Please. Thanks.
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