ON BEING LEFT BEHIND
Why do I always feel that I've been left behind? I know I am, but think about it. Almost everyone I know have their own careers, or even companies. And me? I'm stuck in this hole. In this maelstrom.
I miss a lot of people. I guess this is part of growing up and a fact of life at the same time. But sometimes you just can't help but look out the window and wonder whats going on with everyone. I haven't had a good conversation since 2 weeks ago. And this freakin' school doesn't help matters at all. Besides the campus looking like one large and cavernous warehouse, SOME of the students are either narrow-minded, big fools of themselves, spoiled brats, or "conios". Don't get me wrong, I'm not being anti-social here, its just that, its not the kind of people I want to associate myself with.
Are all these thoughts running in my head because of everything that's happened the past 3-4 years? Having to grow up all of a sudden is not easy, you know. And as time flies, it has become more of a burden. I just burned myself out a couple of months ago. Sometimes I just want to stop everything and just listen to the quiet serenity of my surroundings, but I know it won't happen. Sometimes, it gets tiring, but you have to roll with the punches.
I know I just had summer vacation (probably the last as a student), but I still need more fresh air. I'm tired of being second-fiddle to these incompetent fools in school. I hate being left behind. I have an ambition to realize, and being stuck in a ditch will not help. I need to get out of this before it completely dulls me out.
Anyway, going back to missing people, I miss my friends. Old friends. Cousins (I'll elaborate in a second). I guess yeah, as I've said earlier, this is all part of growing up. I miss everything and everyone. I wish the world would stop revolving for just one day and enjoy everything that I have. I love what I have right now, its just that, I don't know.
To more "recent" stuff (in relation to the topic), I had the opportunity to go out with my cousins the whole weekend for the first time since forever. My 2 cousins that I've been talking about in a very previous entry went home for a few days. But then, things got busy with my cousin's engagement party, so until they left early tuesday morning, I didn't get the chance to talk to them about some stuff I wanted to share personally. *Sigh*, just when I thought I was going to get a good, long conversation with both of them over the weekend. I guess it wasn't in the cards. I miss the 2 of them. I really do. Can't wait 'till they get home this august.
To end on a positive note, I think all this bitterness, longing and negativity should go. I need to be a good example to my nephew and to another one on the way. Talk about getting old. I'm a full-fledged uncle now. :D In all seriousness, I can't wait to see my next nephew/niece.
Peace out!
P.S.: I am unveiling my new motto/catchphrase tonight.
"Fueled by ambition. Driven by faith."
Peace.
Why do I always feel that I've been left behind? I know I am, but think about it. Almost everyone I know have their own careers, or even companies. And me? I'm stuck in this hole. In this maelstrom.
I miss a lot of people. I guess this is part of growing up and a fact of life at the same time. But sometimes you just can't help but look out the window and wonder whats going on with everyone. I haven't had a good conversation since 2 weeks ago. And this freakin' school doesn't help matters at all. Besides the campus looking like one large and cavernous warehouse, SOME of the students are either narrow-minded, big fools of themselves, spoiled brats, or "conios". Don't get me wrong, I'm not being anti-social here, its just that, its not the kind of people I want to associate myself with.
Are all these thoughts running in my head because of everything that's happened the past 3-4 years? Having to grow up all of a sudden is not easy, you know. And as time flies, it has become more of a burden. I just burned myself out a couple of months ago. Sometimes I just want to stop everything and just listen to the quiet serenity of my surroundings, but I know it won't happen. Sometimes, it gets tiring, but you have to roll with the punches.
I know I just had summer vacation (probably the last as a student), but I still need more fresh air. I'm tired of being second-fiddle to these incompetent fools in school. I hate being left behind. I have an ambition to realize, and being stuck in a ditch will not help. I need to get out of this before it completely dulls me out.
Anyway, going back to missing people, I miss my friends. Old friends. Cousins (I'll elaborate in a second). I guess yeah, as I've said earlier, this is all part of growing up. I miss everything and everyone. I wish the world would stop revolving for just one day and enjoy everything that I have. I love what I have right now, its just that, I don't know.
To more "recent" stuff (in relation to the topic), I had the opportunity to go out with my cousins the whole weekend for the first time since forever. My 2 cousins that I've been talking about in a very previous entry went home for a few days. But then, things got busy with my cousin's engagement party, so until they left early tuesday morning, I didn't get the chance to talk to them about some stuff I wanted to share personally. *Sigh*, just when I thought I was going to get a good, long conversation with both of them over the weekend. I guess it wasn't in the cards. I miss the 2 of them. I really do. Can't wait 'till they get home this august.
To end on a positive note, I think all this bitterness, longing and negativity should go. I need to be a good example to my nephew and to another one on the way. Talk about getting old. I'm a full-fledged uncle now. :D In all seriousness, I can't wait to see my next nephew/niece.
Peace out!
P.S.: I am unveiling my new motto/catchphrase tonight.
"Fueled by ambition. Driven by faith."
Peace.
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