Ah hi again..... damn.... I'm so stupid.... so selfish & self-centered..... now she is gone..... forever perhaps..... I can't blame her for saying things that way..... I just realized now...... I just can't get over.... now all I can do is pray.... she's such a perfect girl.... girl of my dreams... now she's gone...... I'm so naive...... all I can say right now is sorry! I thought she was a bitch to me.... now I know she has every reason to be a bitch to me...... I've embarrassed her.. if ever I can do something drastic about it I would've..... now it's just too late..... I'm saying shoulda woulda coulda.... naywayz thanks vida for making me realize my mistakes...... I was so stupid...... all I can do now is pray..... pray that 1 day I wake up & everything's fine.... i just wish & hope.... Damn....